I think I have a midwife. I spoke at length to her partner on the phone. She is coming tomorrow for an interview.
I spent time last week working out why I was having anxiety attacks whenever I thought about/interviewed a midwife. Turns out I had some unresolved issues with trusting them. I thought that wouldn't be an issue - I'm pretty much going to take care of myself this pregnancy - but I was wrong. I still need to be able to trust that the advice they give me is based on honesty and medical fact - not fear for their career.
I'll post again after the interview tomorrow!